I Feel

You can't care about too much in life. At least, I can't. If I fall in love with something, I'm always falling out of love with something else. I'm unsure why I shared that, but I suppose it was on my mind. This painting is about my girlfriend, which relates to one big thing I've recently fallen in love with, and I guess that falling in love part is what this painting is about. Because I've got some trouble understanding feelings. I feel a lot, though, I think. But only after years of analyzing can I comprehend what the feelings mean. I never feel as stupid as when I'm figuring out my feelings. My recent autism diagnosis -- and the accompanying psycho-education group don't help this feeling. But I don't mind; I like being stupid. However, if you'd ask me if I love my girlfriend, who this painting is trying to depict, I'd only be able to tell you so by either: a) The actions I take to be with her. Or; b) To think about my memories, in which my feelings are easier to read. Which is hard, I wish I felt like others did.