Frustrated psychologist

Being in a, at worst near constant & and at best frequent, state of anxiety is just a hobby of mine. But due to circumstances I'm too ashamed to admit, my family and girlfriend hosted an intervention, ugh, consistently ruining my fun. So, a while ago, I started going to therapy. I guess to learn how to relieve some of that anxiety -- but I'm not an optimist, so understanding myself better is a more realistic goal. The fact I don't understand myself much sometimes makes me worry that I can't communicate my feelings very well. Occasionally, I'm nervous that my psychologist will get frustrated with me as I'm unclear about what's in my mind (because I don't know). And periodically, I'm anxious that her frustration could make her scream at me. I've decided to act like nothing is wrong anymore: the best way to solve all my problems.